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evil_jester00 @ 2009-04-12T14:02:00

2009-04-12T04:05:41Z

Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were the stars- little points of life and reason. Then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. And there was no more reason for anything.

You are my world

you

2008-10-05T00:01:11Z

Don't be confused by my apparent lack of ceremony,
My mind is clear.
I may be low or miles high off in the distance,
I want you near.

I love you,
even when I'm sleeping.
When I close my eyes,
you're everywhere.

And if they take me flying on the magic carpet,
see me wave.
If our communication fails I'll re-connect it,
I want to rave.

I love you,
even when I'm sleeping
When I close my eyes,
you're everywhere

No matter where the road is leading us remember,
don't be afraid.
We have a continent that sometimes comes between us,
but that's ok.

I love you,
even when I'm sleeping.
When I close my eyes,
you're everywhere.
When I close my eyes,
you're everywhere.

Don't be afraid, don't be afraid.

Broken

2008-07-27T11:04:41Z

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
it came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

evil_jester00 @ 2007-11-29T21:13:00

2007-11-29T10:27:20Z

I have the most bizarre feelings right now. I have just taken my mum and dad and Sab to my first ever exhibition. The end of my first yr of graphic design meant that we had some of our best work displayed at an exhibition at the TAFE i was just taking it all in my stride for most of this semester not thinking much about it. But now that i have gone there and just seeing my very own work up on the wall for all to see and seeing the teachers pride about their students work has made me feel so utterly proud of myself i had this goofy grin the hole time i was there.

I'm not sure how many pieces i had in the exhibition i didn't count them i should have it didn't even cross my mind at the time. My mum and dad seemed impressed i think they were more happy about the grin that i had. I had an issue about the TAFE was going to attend next yr because i want to move back down the coast closer to my friends and family problem is that now i think about it and now i have been to the other TAFE i remember how well the teachers have taught this yr how dedicated they were to making us all try our best. I don't think i want to leave that. The have the belief that students will learn more from doing the tasks rather than writing a 2000 work essay and that suits me fine this way it doesn't go in one eye and out the other so to speak.

But we have to wait and see i don't want to stop Sab from finishing her course i want her to finish it so she has th feeling i have now :)

thats all

Peace.

evil_jester00 @ 2007-11-20T23:07:00

2007-11-21T00:11:35Z

omg not that anyne cares but i have just finished my last assignment for this year and i have now finished my first year of graphic design diploma GO ME!!!

evil_jester00 @ 2007-11-17T17:52:00

2007-11-17T06:53:48Z

my mother is dunk on cocktails its funny.

lose control

2007-07-08T01:31:15Z

You don't remember my name.
I don't really care.
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once,
With all the pretty flowers in the dust.
Mary had a lamb.
His eyes black as coals.
If we play very quiet, my lamb,
Mary never has to know.
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once.
If I cut you down to a thing I can use,
I fear there will be nothing good left of you.

-

a different kind of pain

2007-06-05T00:39:11Z

Before i let you go
Give me just one more night to show you
Just how i feel
I lost all my control
If it takes my whole damnned life i'll
Make this up to you

Im kinda like the waves that roll their whole life
Towards somewhere crashing it on the shore
Thats blown in by the wind that carries the clouds
To hide my wish on a fallen star

A differnt kind of pain, is someone there to hold you
Is someone there to take you away from me

I tried to let you go
I wish i could turn back time and show
You just how i feel
I needed you to know
If it takes my whole damned life i'll
Make this up to you

Before you let me go, i needed you to know

evil_jester00 @ 2007-04-04T23:33:00

2007-04-05T01:39:42Z

Finally get to update again i'm at TAFE on the computers ooo i'm naughty heh well just wanted to let anyone eho reas this kno i';ll be down the coast at my paents from the 16th so anyone wanting to catch up feel free to msg me could do with some company vause sab's going away for a week so yeah i'll be around.

Nothing mush new to report still doing my TAFE stuff its going ok had a couple of marks i havnt been happy with but fixin them up so yeah i'm actually trying this yr.

Sab and i are good still managing to not be too poor. I will be getting the net soon so will be able to chat to ppl i havnt for a while so that will be good. Well thats about it.

-me

evil_jester00 @ 2007-02-22T15:58:00

2007-02-22T05:12:47Z

Sorry been so long since i've posted and will be awhile till i post again i dont have the internet at my place yet and it really sux hard specially with tafe work and all :/ hope all you guys are doin good out there since i just sorta up and left you all of a sudden and doopitsi'm sorry i quit woollies but if i didn't my car along with my head would've turned into poopy shit.

I'm still at TAFE suprise suprise and loving it except all the freakin homework i have. Money sitch is ok for now although i wouldnt mind have\ing a oine day job up here doing something easy just for tht little bit extra cash. Meh oh well you get tht. The only big new i have really is that I GOT A KITTEN
Name: Jasper
Age: 8 Weeks
Colour: Dark turtle shell
She's an abbsolute sook she keeps me company when sab's at work and i'm stuck inside doing homeworl which is most of the time.

Ok thats all i got about now so yeah till next time....

PS if anyone wants to come visit feel free just msg i'd love the omcpany considerin i'm friendless up here.

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-26T02:35:00

2006-12-24T23:52:59Z

Merry xmas ppl! So its about 10:30am xmas day and i have been awake since about 6am didnt sleep untill 2am because i was simply to excited not about christmas about something thats happening this week that will be a once only event a memory that wil be made this week that will last me forever. One that i wil look back at and smile for all eternity no matter what happens. As if thts not something to be excited about.

At the moment i'm in Canberra at my sisters house it is windy... cold and apparently snowing about 2 hours south of here... hello? did no one tell th weather man its SUMMER!? I left home (6am) in shorts and a singlet i now wish i had my jeans and jumper like i thought about wearing... idiot :/ I'm sitting on my bro in law's new lap top im not even sure i'm alloud to use it but my bro in law is at work, my sis and mum are at church(got outta it YAY) dads talking to bro in laws father and im being anti social as per usual (im thought to be the problem child so why not act it?) heh even tho that was clearly my brothers job.

I hate this key board the space bar is a bitch so if all my words aretogetherlikethis just ignore it its me being too lazy to press any harder and move my hands. Its hard typing on this with long nails. hmm so ive been working alot lately and im kinda over "hi how you going? have a nice christmas" so yesterday on my 9 hr shift of hell i decided to start saying how ya goin? have a good one" nooooo wooolies isnt boring at all heh and yesterday i saw doopits midrift which im sure is a never before seen site... its only beause the sexy little kid decorated christmas shirt seemed to be an xtra small bit like some of the other checkout chix there kim youuu kno who im talkin bout. OH OH and then there was a cockroach which fell out of a customers greenbag and scared the shit out of kim and phyl (im not gonna evn attemt at spelling her name) and the man squashed it with his thong and it was still moving and kim screamed and so i squashed it more and then pretended to throw it at phyl and she squeeled and it made my night... that and when she told a family of muslim people to "have a great christmas" when... they dont celebrate it. And informed their child of whom santa was. HAHA oh funny funny.

I've broken the mouse on this thing ahhhhh ok i re booted and im ok now lol hmm hope i didnt break anything. Its almost lunchtime and its freezing :S my niece is so cute shes randomly pointing to things saying mummy? lol yay for xmas ok lunch time thts all

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-20T23:41:00

2006-12-20T12:47:08Z

I've come across some of the best music lately and i;m so glad of it. Ive needed it these past few weeks. Ive gotten more hours this week so there's a good thing and another good thing i got accepted into TAFE for graphic design... end

I was blown away what could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You’ve taken away everything
And I can’t do without
I try to see the good in life
But good things in life are hard to find

Blow it away, Blow it away
Can we make this something goooood
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start oveeerr
I tried to do it right this time around
Its not oveeerr
There’s a part of me that’s dead and in the ground
This love is killing me, but you’re the only one
Its not overrrrr

Taken all I could take and I cannot wait
Were wasting to much time
Being strong holding on
Cant let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won’t give up that easily

Blow it Away, Blow it Away
Can we make this something gooood
Cause its all misunderstoooood
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
It’s not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not oveeeerrr

We can’t let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don’t get caught up in yourself
Let it ouuuuttttt

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-17T20:50:00

2006-12-17T09:56:43Z

i'm in that place again the one where ppl can talk to me and ill know they are seaking but its like slow motion. Fucking head it always makes the worst out of situations. I wanna go out and be around ppl but can't bring myself to step outside and i don't know where id go cause everyone is busy.
I'm so fucking over it.

food for thought?

2006-12-16T12:38:36Z

Taken from indecisive_grrr

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions: no more, no less. Ask me anything you want (though I reserve the right to not answer, or to answer evasively). Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this, allowing your friends (including me) to ask you anything. (comments screaned)

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-14T12:09:00

2006-12-14T01:10:48Z

I'm feeling crossed
I take it inside
Burn up the pain
My thoughts are strange
Just like the things
I used to love
Just like the tree that fell
I heard it
If art is still inside
I feel it

I wanna bleed
Show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream
Let the blood flow that keeps me alive

Take all these strings
They call my veins
Wrap them around
Every fucking thing

Presence of people
Not for me
Well I must remain in tune
Forever
My love is music
I will marry melody

I wanna bleed
Show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream
Let the blood flow that keeps me alive

Won't you let me take you
For a ride
You can stop the world
Try to change my mind
Won't you let me show you
How it feels
You can stop the world
But you won't change me

I need music
I need music
I need music to set me free
To let me bleed

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-13T13:16:00

2006-12-13T02:16:40Z

There's something in your ways
That makes me wanna stay here for a thousand years
So just cry your fears, yeah, I need you everyday
Inside you I just want to wipe away your fears
So just cry your tears, yeah

I wish I was with you

If I stay well than your tears will set you free
If I stay right here and forever with you
Everything I feel for you is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here and forever with you

My eyes!

My eyes

This is tearing me apart I wish I could be in your soft arms
Feel you again
Anytime I feel like I'm to far
Than I will try to remember all ours and your memories I know

I wish I was in you

If I stay Well then your tears will set you free
If I stay right here and forever with you
Everything I feel for you Is everything I want to stay with you
If I stay right here
And forever with you

My eyes! my eyes

My eyes! my eyes

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-07T21:17:00

2006-12-07T10:17:03Z

i think....

no i know i'm lonely :(

yay for emo entries

evil_jester00 @ 2006-12-06T10:29:00

2006-12-05T23:29:52Z

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

So beautiful, beautiful...

evil_jester00 @ 2006-11-24T01:24:00

2006-11-23T14:24:23Z

evil_jester00 @ 2006-11-23T22:46:00

2006-11-23T11:46:33Z

heh so it seems i only update my journal lately when im not feelin the best or to post lyrics... how emo of me. Ah well yes as i said i'm not the best at the moment i think it prolly has something to do with the music the lack of cigz and the tremendous stress of things to come in the next month or so and the lack of money to do it with. hmm There are other things bothering me but as usual i wont discuss them over LJ all i know is i'm not too sure how i feel about any of it. I know how i should feel and how people would want me to feel but i havn't really made out how i actually really feel. its complicated. I'm not evn sure whats making me think that i have to analyze it anyway. the point of my story is i think too much....

end.

evil_jester00 @ 2006-11-18T01:46:00

2006-11-17T14:46:22Z

I'm still awake i have to work tomorrow and its 1:40 ish and im still awake why? because i'm waiting to talk on the phone... i'm insane.

evil_jester00 @ 2006-11-14T23:47:00

2006-11-14T12:47:04Z

She is smiling like heaven is down on earth
Sun is shining so bright on her
And all her wishes have finally come true
And her heart is weeping.
This happiness is killing her.

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

So hard she's trying
But her heart won't turn to stone... oh no
She keeps on crying
But I won't leave her alone
She'll never be alone

She'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

And she'll be right here in my arms
So in Love
She'll be right here in these arms
She can't let go

evil_jester00 @ 2006-10-31T21:51:00

2006-10-31T11:19:02Z

just so we know this is on the right ankle

FROM THIS SHITTY MC SHIT
TO THIS FUCKIN AWSOME!

evil_jester00 @ 2006-10-29T09:06:00

2006-10-29T09:12:49Z

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you've said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top
The next you're not watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
Next you're not missed your shot
Making you're heart stop
You think you've won
And then its all gone

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

evil_jester00 @ 2006-10-26T10:44:00

2006-10-26T10:51:13Z

A man walks into a bar with a slab of asphalt under his arm and says: "A beer please, and one for the road."

Doctors tell us there are over seven million people who are overweight. These, of course, are only round figures.

There were two ships. One had red paint, one had blue paint. They collided. At last report, the survivors were marooned.

Where do you find giant snails? On the ends of giant's fingers.

Why is Saudi Arabia free of mental illness? There are nomad people there.

When I was in the supermarket I saw a man and a woman wrapped in a barcode. I asked, "Are you two an item?"

A guy walks into the psychiatrist's office wearing only Glad Wrap shorts. The shrink says, "Well, I can clearly see you're nuts."

A guy walks into a bar with jumper cables. The bartender says, "You can come in, but don't start anything!"

A man walks into a bar with a slab of asphalt under his arm and says: "A beer please, and one for the road."

Two peanuts walk into a bar. One was a salted.

An invisible man marries an invisible woman. The kids were nothing to look at either.

i crack myself up sometimes...